I've received lots questions lately on how things are going. We really appreciate all the love and support from all of our friends and family. I thought I would just post the answer I've been giving.
I'm not thinking about things right now. We are caught in a waiting game to see if anything gets recorded on my heart monitor. So, in the meantime, I just can't think about things and am focusing on enjoying my kids and staying plugged in to normal life.
The thing that does occassionally hit me and forces me to choke back tears every time is Sierra's excitement for her sister. I was informing Sierra this past Monday that we would be babysitting a tiny new baby for a few hours. She immediately lit up and asked, "Is it my new baby sister?" She faithfully prays for this sister in her heart too. We've also decided to hire someone to help us with the downstairs construction so we can get the bedroom moves completed. That has caused a renewed excitement in Sierra for her bedroom she plans to share with her sister.
If God closes the door to us for a fourth child, it will be very hard, but I know I can look at the situation with experienced eyes and know there is a loving reason. I can soak in the comfort of God's Word filled with very difficult adult-sized concepts and lessons. But I don't know how we will help Sierra through that. It makes me wonder if we were very wrong to have involved her so much. We just never dreamed we might come away empty-handed; a roller-coaster ride and not exactly what we expected- yes, but not empty-handed.
I know I am starting to ramble. If you could just please pray for us as parents as we continue on this journey that if there comes a time that we have to tell Sierra that she will not have a sister, that her heart would be prepared. Please pray that we would be able to lead her through in a way that shows God's love for her and strengthens her faith- not damages it. Thank you again.
I'm not thinking about things right now. We are caught in a waiting game to see if anything gets recorded on my heart monitor. So, in the meantime, I just can't think about things and am focusing on enjoying my kids and staying plugged in to normal life.
The thing that does occassionally hit me and forces me to choke back tears every time is Sierra's excitement for her sister. I was informing Sierra this past Monday that we would be babysitting a tiny new baby for a few hours. She immediately lit up and asked, "Is it my new baby sister?" She faithfully prays for this sister in her heart too. We've also decided to hire someone to help us with the downstairs construction so we can get the bedroom moves completed. That has caused a renewed excitement in Sierra for her bedroom she plans to share with her sister.
If God closes the door to us for a fourth child, it will be very hard, but I know I can look at the situation with experienced eyes and know there is a loving reason. I can soak in the comfort of God's Word filled with very difficult adult-sized concepts and lessons. But I don't know how we will help Sierra through that. It makes me wonder if we were very wrong to have involved her so much. We just never dreamed we might come away empty-handed; a roller-coaster ride and not exactly what we expected- yes, but not empty-handed.
I know I am starting to ramble. If you could just please pray for us as parents as we continue on this journey that if there comes a time that we have to tell Sierra that she will not have a sister, that her heart would be prepared. Please pray that we would be able to lead her through in a way that shows God's love for her and strengthens her faith- not damages it. Thank you again.
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We've been thinking over similar things. I know, to some extent, how you feel about the possibility of sharing difficult news with a very excited child. We are praying for you guys! Love Corbin's cheesy smile!
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