Selections from Job 38

Who is this that darkens my counsel with words without knowledge? Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me.

Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?
Who marked off its dimensions?
On what were its footings set, or who laid its conerstone- while the morning stars sang together and all the angels shouted for joy?
Who shut up the sea behind doors when it burst forth from the womb, when I made the clouds its garment and wrapped it in thick darkness, when I fixed limits for it and set its doors and bars in place, when I said 'This far you may go and no farther; here is where you proud waves halt.'
Have you ever given orders to the morning, or shown the dawn its place, that it might take the earth by the edges and shake the wicked out of it?
Have you ever journeyed to the springs of the sea or walked in the recesses of the deep?
Have the gates of death been shown to you?
What is the way to the abode of light? And where does darkness reside? Can you take them to their places? Do you know the paths to their dwellings? Surely you know, for you were already born! You have lived so many years!
Have you entered the storehouses of the snow or seen the storehouses of the hail, which I reserve for times of trouble, for days of war and battle?

God continues on through chapter 39 demonstrating His power- His divinity. I absolutely cannot see a good reason for having this heart condition suddenly resurface. I just have to accept that it is so and trust in His love for me. He has demonstrated it to me personally so many times in the past. And He has provided story after story after story testifying to his love in other's lives in His Bible. Better people could probably embrace this path, but my selfishness/ pride/ stubborness still needs to be worked on before I can do that. But I do accept and will trust. And I will be like the widow that persistantly goes to the judge by pleading that He still allows this little girl to come home to us.