I just spent some sweet time on the phone with Marilynn Hutton and she was very encouraging. I thought I would share. She led me to Acts 2:25:
"I saw the Lord alwasys before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken."
Then we turned to II Chronicles 20. Verse 12:
"O our God, will you not judge them? For we have no power to face this vast army that is attacking us. We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you."
Verse 15:
"Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's."
Verse 17
"You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you."
Verse 20 and 21:
"Listen to me, Judah and people of Jerusalem! Have faith in the Lord your God and you will be upheld; have faith in his prophets and your will be successful." Then the men began to "sing to the Lord and to praise him for the splendor of his holiness as they went out at the head of the army saying 'Give thanks to the Lord for his love endures forever.'
Of course we know God handed over Israel's enemies to them and the battle was theirs.
As I was talking to Marilynn, I realized another truth. All that we were discussing were things that I know. And I also know that God owes me nothing- no answers, no fourth child, no salvation, nothing. But He loves us and since He is our creator, he understands us and knows us intimately. He know that in our human-ness, it helps to have His Word to refer back to in times like these. So, my realization was that He was showing me yet another way that He loves me by writing these truths down for me. And I know that whatever happens with our adoption, it is happening because of His love for me and my family.
It is getting late and the amount of tears I've shed today has left me pretty exhausted. So hopefully some of this made sense to someone other than just myself :) Please look to Christ with us and plead that Friday's consultation with the cardiologist will go well and that, in the end, there is a little girl in Bulgaria that will one day have the name Ausfahl and share a bedroom with Sierra. But if not, please continue to encourage us to keep our eyes focussed on Him, and not on the circumstances around us. Good night.
"I saw the Lord alwasys before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken."
Then we turned to II Chronicles 20. Verse 12:
"O our God, will you not judge them? For we have no power to face this vast army that is attacking us. We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you."
Verse 15:
"Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's."
Verse 17
"You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you."
Verse 20 and 21:
"Listen to me, Judah and people of Jerusalem! Have faith in the Lord your God and you will be upheld; have faith in his prophets and your will be successful." Then the men began to "sing to the Lord and to praise him for the splendor of his holiness as they went out at the head of the army saying 'Give thanks to the Lord for his love endures forever.'
Of course we know God handed over Israel's enemies to them and the battle was theirs.
As I was talking to Marilynn, I realized another truth. All that we were discussing were things that I know. And I also know that God owes me nothing- no answers, no fourth child, no salvation, nothing. But He loves us and since He is our creator, he understands us and knows us intimately. He know that in our human-ness, it helps to have His Word to refer back to in times like these. So, my realization was that He was showing me yet another way that He loves me by writing these truths down for me. And I know that whatever happens with our adoption, it is happening because of His love for me and my family.
It is getting late and the amount of tears I've shed today has left me pretty exhausted. So hopefully some of this made sense to someone other than just myself :) Please look to Christ with us and plead that Friday's consultation with the cardiologist will go well and that, in the end, there is a little girl in Bulgaria that will one day have the name Ausfahl and share a bedroom with Sierra. But if not, please continue to encourage us to keep our eyes focussed on Him, and not on the circumstances around us. Good night.
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Lord,
Thank you for the A family and all the joy that C has brought me as my friend. Please be with her even now as she sleeps Lord...comfort her as she dreams, give her peace. Lord let her rest well and let her exhausted body heal. Also Lord...as hard as this is to say...let Your will be done. I pray and plead on their behalf that you give them the desire of their hearts...but more importantly that they taste Your sweet love and learn whatever it is that You are teaching them through this whole experience.
I would love to just pray some fluffy prayer that would request that everything turn out alright as in "how they want it" but only You know exactly what is the best for them. Please help them rest in that truth and like Charisa mentioned that You love them so so so sosoooooo much that we cannot even wrap our minds around that love.
I guess I don't even know what to pray either at some points...except to thank you for them, for their example to the world in loving you, for their willingness to follow you (blindly and through pain at some junctures..okay at most here) and Lord for their friendship.
Bless them, keep them, fill them up with Your love and peace....and even though it hurts, thank you for growing them and glorifying yourself through it...it is a wonder to watch and witness how You work in and through others and how you grow them....
In Jesus's name I pray,
AMEN
I will praying you through the morning C....please keep us posted. Sorry if the above doesn't make sense...I just kinda let my heart do the typing....
Love,
R..............:)
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