John 9- God Glorified

Lately, my mommy heart has been really struggling. We are no longer able to have children from my womb because God has placed our daughter in a Bulgarian orphanage. Some might have noticed that I removed two horrific posts. I did so because they are controversial and, right now, not beneficial for the children. The truth is that most of the Bulgarian orphanages provide better care than what was described. Also, the government and the Bulgarian people have done much to improve the conditions since the release of the documentary I believe entitled The Abandoned Children of Bulgaria. You can find them on YouTube.com. I cannot watch them. So our daughter is most likely in a much better situation than the hell-holes we have read about. But still- institutionalized care is institutionalized care. And our daughter will come home with much baggage. Which leads me to my struggling heart- that I'm not sure how to explain. I am not upset that God has led us to adopt. I am, however, upset that God has allowed such pain in our daughter's life. I'm upset that we aren't merely getting our daughter from Bulgaria but we are having to rescue one of our children. And I can't just board the next plane and make the pain end tomorrow.

We had the MOPS tea this morning. our speaker reminded us of the story in John 9 about the man that had been blind since birth. In verse 3, Christ explained his blindness was not due to his sins or his parents. His blindness had been allowed so that a mighty work could be done in his life so God would be glorified. My prayer is that, as a family, we can help her find this purpose. And, yet again, that I will entrust all my children to God's infinitely better love and care.